I was just reading a friend's blog and it made me regret a lot of things that happened last year, a lot of them triggered by the one thing that I did. I am not at all proud of things that happened last year and it has severely affected the way my life is now. I wish me and a few people were closer and a I wish I had a lot more people in my life that were the same way inclined (online) as me. That way there would be so many more oppertunities for me to go places and meet people. I am honestly annoyed at a few people for completely stupid reasons that I have thought up in my head. "Why can't she be more like me?" "Why does he always achieve things?" "Where does all of that come from in them?" To be honest I'm just annoyed at people because of what I lack in myself and I honestly have no idea of how to gain any of it. I don't want to be this selfish and timid person anymore because I see what other people have got because they have amazing confidance and people skills that I lack. I feel lonely for reasons I can not put into words. To be honest I doubt any of this made sense. It's time for a change.
- XO -
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